We found out that I was expecting in the beginning of December. I was only four weeks along, but it only took a few seconds for that second line to appear.
I was both thrilled and scared. I have longed for another child for over a year and a half. Pined for another (just ask anyone who knows me in real life!). Four children isn't a lot (well, that depends on who you ask!) but I already feel the overwhelming pressure of motherhood and all that it entails with the three that I already have. Am I really equipped to do this again?
Fear quickly subsided as I remembered that God wouldn't have given me this child if He thought I couldn't handle it. (I'll just need to keep reminding myself of that one, probably on a daily basis!)
My first trimester is over (already?!), and I've had a rather rough bout with morning sickness this time around. For well over a month, I was nearly incapacitated from it, spending my days lying on the couch and trying to entertain three small children at the same time while my husband was at work. It was hard.
Thankfully, the nausea, while definitely not gone, is more manageable than it was and I'm able to get up and perform household tasks in small amounts. I've cut our schooling down to the basics and I'm leaning on my husband for support. We're at a stage in life that requires as much simplicity as we can muster and I'm beginning to be okay with that. It can be difficult to not let feelings of failure seep in as you look at a house that isn't as clean as you'd prefer, your children spend more days in their PJs and watching television than normal, and instead of feeding your body healthy nutritious food you can only tolerate and keep down sips of certain sodas over crushed ice and carb filled, bready foods. It is what it is though. Growing babies is hard work and we have to sometimes let go of the reigns and follow a different lead.
I'm 16 weeks now and anxiously awaiting the big gender reveal! There are lots of votes for Team Blue around here since my little Aron is the only boy sandwiched between sisters. I'm not leaning any particular way though and I'm excited either way!
|Taken this past Wednesday|
How many other pregnant mommies do I have reading here? How far along are you? How many children do you already have?
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